Wonderment

Sitting here, staring at the stars. Lying on the grass. Listening to the cars. Thoughts are rushing through my mind. Feelings of anger and hurt is what I find. Wondering how this all could be. Why are these bad things happening to me. Watching the clouds as they pass by. Asking why as the tears fall from my eye. My heart starts to throb and hurt in my chest. I never feel like I deserve the best. I've screwed up my life and let many down. As I lay in my bed, in my own tears I drown. So help me to see and help me understand. Lend me your ear and give me your hand.

Life

Have you ever had everything in life ripped away from you? And not even piece by piece but literally all at once. Imagine not only losing your possessions, but also all the people that matter in your life. Now think, how bad is my life, honestly?

think about this

In the movies you see how people who fall in love or become best friends, never knew the other existed yet they saw them every single day for years and didn't even know it. I thought of that while working at the coffee shop. Looking around the room, I saw all the regulars that come in and that they don't know it, but they're sitting at the table right next to another regular. Each day, they all come in and cross paths but the baristas are the only ones who notice that.

It got me thinking, what if you have walked by the person you are going to end up spending forever with so may times and possibly made eye contact with them, but you don't even realize it or know who they are?. The coffee shop I work at has been around for over 10 years and I grew up in this town, going to this coffee shop that entire time. And I never knew the workers there.

How do you know that the person you fall in love with is someone you saw most of your life and never even knew their name? Something to think about. You could have met your one but it could have been wrong timing.

Questionnaire

Ok so hannah tagged me to answer all these questions. Here it goes.
1.)Favorite Bible verse? Or one that's been knocking around in your head lately? This would have to be Isaiah 54:17 because it tells us that as long as we always put God first in our life, nothing can or will come between you and Him. Also Revelation 21:3,4 because it shows us the hope we all have.... God will wipe out every tear from our eyes and death will be no more. Neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore.
2.) Favorite flower? Lillie's!!
3.) If you had a hot air balloon, what color would it be? Hmmm I'd say black and red. Make it classy
4.) What do you keep in your purse? Everything!!! Lol there is my wallet, Chapstick, meds, other stuff haha. Gum and mints
5.) Do you like the smell of campfire? Love it but only when I am camping.
6.) Have you ever laughed so hard you nearly pulled a muscle? If so, at what? If not, what was the hardest you ever laughed at something? I laugh super hard at everything so it is really hard to decide an instance. But it happens often.
7.) Do you put real people into your novels and then feel bad whenever you read the very first page of published novels? I haven't published a novel. Lol and all my stories are super short. And they are all based off of real people. I never feel bad haha
8.) Do you have a jewelry box? What is your favorite piece of jewelry? I don't. But I love my earrings and toe rings 
9.) What villain do you most relate with? And what hero/heroine? Eek... A villain I am not sure about. You tell me... Lol. I'm going to say for a hero, the hulk haha. I can super mad at something but just one touch from the one I love will calm me down and I'm totally ok.
10.) Do you like to receive letters? Do you like to write letters? Love both!!!
11.) Open your book (yep, the one that you are writing) and go to the last page. What is the first complete sentence on that page? (If you aren't writing a book, pick the book that you are reading up and do the same). The summer was over and the leaves had turned into vibrant oranges, reds and yellows
12.) Do you journal? What does your journal look like if so? My journal is dark brown leather. I got it as a graduation present. 
13.) If you could magically learn a language (but only one) what would you choose? Hmm tough one.. I'd say Chinese
14.) How would you describe your style? I'm totally hipsterish. And western and preppy lol
15.) What does friendship mean to you? What does a good friend look like? Friendship means the world to me. But you are lucky if you have one good friend you're whole life. It is someone who sticks closer to you than family. Someone who loves you no matter what. Who forgives, forgets and cares and would do anything to help you through everything.